Words blurred and I lost consciousness. My eyes opened but that was all. Questions. Answers flooded my mind, but hid from my lips. Modeled to the crowd - injected into the wheeled circus. Bed paraded down the hall, as if it takes that many to push it. Cancer haunted rooms, tests, and lips. Eerie. Silent. … Continue reading Diagnosed
I've been blogging less for a while now because I'm not really feeling inspirational and because I've been having panic attacks, maybe PTSD. I'm not even sure which came first-slowing my writing or the attacks, but I think they're related because now I realize that writing was bringing my issues forward and probably would've helped … Continue reading Brain Cancer Panic Attacks
My brain is like a sunset Going down and going out She was so strong and beautiful Is that why I’m still around? The glow is warmer as the sky darkens Good memories are sealed A toast, good cheer, and the night goes on For those enjoying the sunset *Photo and poem both by LahLa
Whether you are a patient, loved one, medical professional, or simply an inquisitive person, I hope my experience helps you.
Happy 4-year Cancerversary to me. There is no emoticon for how I feel, the ocean says it best. Thank you, fellow bloggers who have helped me on my journey. 🌺.
So many cancer patients talk about wanting their spouse to find the right person and love again. I love my husband and don't want him to be unhappy or lonely, so ultimately I want that too, but it's crippling, nauseating, and heart stopping to think about. Maybe when I'm knowingly closer to death my perspective … Continue reading My Husband Having a New Wife – from My Brain Cancer Freeish Perspective
Of course I fear cancer returning its ugly head. But I am taking this moment, this breath, and acknowledging my gratitude that I'm not there. I chose to be active in life rather than powerless to cancer.
It's hard to do things that are a waste of time when you are already short on time.
Sometimes life-events are so shocking or overwhelming that people react differently than they normal would. This change can be valid, and even necessary at the time, but when things heal or settle, there can come a time when safety mode is no longer effective, and can even be counter productive. That's where I am.
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