I wish my feelings and thoughts were clear. Feelings are messy, jumbled, yet directive, leading to a questionable path. Or are they? Do our actions go where our minds are afraid to? Despite all effort, don't we keep ending up in the same place we desperately wish to avoid? Next time I'll stop, endure until … Continue reading Clear
Sometimes I wonder if God kept me alive through brain cancer because I'm the only human being in my household who knows how to change a toilet paper roll...
It's finally dawned on me what's going on. Maybe cancer can't be created or destroyed but can convert from one form to another? For the last four years, my "cancer" has been dormant because my MRIs and bloodwork show that, but something has been creeping around. Something has been living on my body, mind, and … Continue reading Cancer’s State of Matter
This pictures best reflects what it feels like to have a normal life with brain cancer without being defined by cancer. The following one represents what most days are like: Thanks Free Photo Library for saying it best! Sometimes words aren’t enough!
Words blurred and I lost consciousness. My eyes opened but that was all. Questions. Answers flooded my mind, but hid from my lips. Modeled to the crowd - injected into the wheeled circus. Bed paraded down the hall, as if it takes that many to push it. Cancer haunted rooms, tests, and lips. Eerie. Silent. … Continue reading Diagnosed
I've been blogging less for a while now because I'm not really feeling inspirational and because I've been having panic attacks, maybe PTSD. I'm not even sure which came first-slowing my writing or the attacks, but I think they're related because now I realize that writing was bringing my issues forward and probably would've helped … Continue reading Brain Cancer Panic Attacks
My brain is like a sunset Going down and going out She was so strong and beautiful Is that why I’m still around? The glow is warmer as the sky darkens Good memories are sealed A toast, good cheer, and the night goes on For those enjoying the sunset *Photo and poem both by LahLa