It was right after our refrigerator arrived that I found out. Our kitchen was otherwise complete, but it had been on backorder for quite some time and the old one was like a ninety year-old face on a twenty one year-old hard-body. The timing of the delivery was actually like a divine intervention for the … Continue reading Five Years Ago Today
Dear Lahla, As you start anew, these are the three life lessons I’ve selected to hold onto as the rest of your memories wash away and you begin again. Keep these, Lahla. You’ll see… Deal with your problems right away, no matter how big or small. They don’t go away, but pester, nag, and haunt … Continue reading An Open Letter to Myself (If I Could Start Life Over Again)
I wish my feelings and thoughts were clear. Feelings are messy, jumbled, yet directive, leading to a questionable path. Or are they? Do our actions go where our minds are afraid to? Despite all effort, don't we keep ending up in the same place we desperately wish to avoid? Next time I'll stop, endure until … Continue reading Clear
Sometimes I wonder if God kept me alive through brain cancer because I'm the only human being in my household who knows how to change a toilet paper roll...
It's finally dawned on me what's going on. Maybe cancer can't be created or destroyed but can convert from one form to another? For the last four years, my "cancer" has been dormant because my MRIs and bloodwork show that, but something has been creeping around. Something has been living on my body, mind, and … Continue reading Cancer’s State of Matter
This pictures best reflects what it feels like to have a normal life with brain cancer without being defined by cancer. The following one represents what most days are like: Thanks Free Photo Library for saying it best! Sometimes words aren’t enough!
Words blurred and I lost consciousness. My eyes opened but that was all. Questions. Answers flooded my mind, but hid from my lips. Modeled to the crowd - injected into the wheeled circus. Bed paraded down the hall, as if it takes that many to push it. Cancer haunted rooms, tests, and lips. Eerie. Silent. … Continue reading Diagnosed