I’ve hated the changes that have come with a tumor, surgery, and chemotherapy. My memory, wait- what was I talking about? As you can see, my memory is gone. My patience has diminished, my reactions have increased, my stress in exponential, my “tasking” has gone solo, and my self esteem has plummeted. I’m telling you … Continue reading You Don’t Have to Tell Everyone…Or Do You?
Category: Brain Cancer
A Hairy Post-Craniotomy Situation
Physical changes like bald spots, hair loss, and big old dents in your head are now part of the life and effect more areas than you can imagine. Join me as I talk about getting your hair done post-craniotomy.
Secret Thoughts Over Lunch
This quick story was featured in my writing class for its inclusion of multiple conflicts and because it made the instructor burst out laughing unexpectantly!
MRI on Halloween
Trying to treat myself to a good Halloween MRI.
Five Years Ago Today
It was right after our refrigerator arrived that I found out. Our kitchen was otherwise complete, but it had been on backorder for quite some time and the old one was like a ninety year-old face on a twenty one year-old hard-body. The timing of the delivery was actually like a divine intervention for the … Continue reading Five Years Ago Today
An Open Letter to Myself (If I Could Start Life Over Again)
Dear Lahla, As you start anew, these are the three life lessons I’ve selected to hold onto as the rest of your memories wash away and you begin again. Keep these, Lahla. You’ll see… Deal with your problems right away, no matter how big or small. They don’t go away, but pester, nag, and haunt … Continue reading An Open Letter to Myself (If I Could Start Life Over Again)
Clear
I wish my feelings and thoughts were clear. Feelings are messy, jumbled, yet directive, leading to a questionable path. Or are they? Do our actions go where our minds are afraid to? Despite all effort, don't we keep ending up in the same place we desperately wish to avoid? Next time I'll stop, endure until … Continue reading Clear
Deep Thoughts. Sometimes I Wonder…
Sometimes I wonder if God kept me alive through brain cancer because I'm the only human being in my household who knows how to change a toilet paper roll...
Cancer’s State of Matter
It's finally dawned on me what's going on. Maybe cancer can't be created or destroyed but can convert from one form to another? For the last four years, my "cancer" has been dormant because my MRIs and bloodwork show that, but something has been creeping around. Something has been living on my body, mind, and … Continue reading Cancer’s State of Matter
Cancer Defining Me vs. Denial = OMG Insanity!
This pictures best reflects what it feels like to have a normal life with brain cancer without being defined by cancer. The following one represents what most days are like: Thanks Free Photo Library for saying it best! Sometimes words aren’t enough!