It was right after our refrigerator arrived that I found out. Our kitchen was otherwise complete, but it had been on backorder for quite some time and the old one was like a ninety year-old face on a twenty one year-old hard-body. The timing of the delivery was actually like a divine intervention for the … Continue reading Five Years Ago Today
An Open Letter to Myself (If I Could Start Life Over Again)
Dear Lahla, As you start anew, these are the three life lessons I’ve selected to hold onto as the rest of your memories wash away and you begin again. Keep these, Lahla. You’ll see… Deal with your problems right away, no matter how big or small. They don’t go away, but pester, nag, and haunt … Continue reading An Open Letter to Myself (If I Could Start Life Over Again)
Clear
I wish my feelings and thoughts were clear. Feelings are messy, jumbled, yet directive, leading to a questionable path. Or are they? Do our actions go where our minds are afraid to? Despite all effort, don't we keep ending up in the same place we desperately wish to avoid? Next time I'll stop, endure until … Continue reading Clear
Deep Thoughts. Sometimes I Wonder…
Sometimes I wonder if God kept me alive through brain cancer because I'm the only human being in my household who knows how to change a toilet paper roll...
How Do You Know?
How do you know when the weight you’re carrying is just holding you down and when it’s indicating you need to go another way? I’ve concluded that it needs to go, but when is it forgiveness with some assurance it won’t happen again and when is it making sure it won’t happen again? Is there … Continue reading How Do You Know?
Doing Something Outside Myself
After emergency mode it can be hard to pick up the pieces and get back to normal. Actually, in my experience you don't really "get back," rather, you create new. However, I'm not sure whether that's true for everyone. Anyway, approaching your own normal concept is challenging too. One thing I've found especially helpful is … Continue reading Doing Something Outside Myself
Cancer’s State of Matter
It's finally dawned on me what's going on. Maybe cancer can't be created or destroyed but can convert from one form to another? For the last four years, my "cancer" has been dormant because my MRIs and bloodwork show that, but something has been creeping around. Something has been living on my body, mind, and … Continue reading Cancer’s State of Matter
